I really think normal is overrated, anyway :)
I guess I just have to face it . . . this is my life . . . always has been . . . always will be. Maybe the mistakes I have made in the past when I lost weight was thinking that I had won. I lost weight and felt good and I hoisted the trophy high above my head. (With no arms jiggling, I might add.) Victory!! I don't think I ever got cocky - I think I just started to feel "normal". "Normal" felt really good. And so I would begin to relax. I had made it! BIG BIG BIG MISTAKE! I need to get it through my head that I will never be "normal"(whatever that is). Which is not to say that I can never be happy, because those are two entirely separate things. I AM happy . . . very happy . . . I'm just not "normal". I just need to remember that this IS my life, and that when (not if, but when) I lose weight (again), it is just the beginning. I can never let down. Ever. Never ever.